What is Separation anxiety? google tells that Separation anxiety is a developmentally normal characteristic in infants and toddlers younger than 4 years upon separation from their primary attachment figure. Mild distress and clinging behavior are anticipated for short periods of time when young children are separated from their primary caregivers (attachment figures)_{oops...but i'm not a child anymore} then why do i felt this way? hmmm... can somebody give me a warm and comforting hug please......................

Wedding... isn't it every woman's dream? that's what my Ate told me ... She finally took a vow just recently, on the 25th day of April... As I watched her walked down the aisle I can really tell how happy she was... her smile, her eyes... indeed it's a dream come true for her! As for me... God has a plan, not too soon... not too early.. In His time, His perfect time, i'll be declaring my "I DO" to the only man whom God has set for me... :)

As I hurried my way to the office this morning, a wailing ambulance caught my attention... It was so fast that the loud noise of its siren can really hurt one's eardrums... then it reminded me one tragic day of my life...

nOvEmBeR 2, 2005 mOre oR LeSs 10:30 am @ d ImpaSug-Ong Nat'l Hi-Way nEaR atUgAn bRidge.....@#$%^&*<+?>~!!!!

whEw! it'S bEeN more than 3 years yEt eVeRythiNg wAs stiLL fReSh oN my miNd! aS i rEminiSce thAt sCenAriO, it waS rEaLLy vEry sCary! i CaN stiLL rEmembEr thE bLoOd oN my eYeliD rUnNing thRoUgh my fAce dOwn tO my shiRt... tHe pAiN oN my sHoULdEr, on my forehead.. my broken nose.. the bruises on the coRneR of my lips and on my neck! i cAn stiLL reMember hOw my mOthEr reActEd whEn shE sAw mE...t'Was a piCtuRe of aNgeR aNd pity, gOod thiNg my bRothER cAme tO cALm hEr..tHeN tHerE waS thAt x-Ray, thE ct-sCaN thAt i've gOne tHroUgh.. tHe paiNfUL iNjEctiOn fOr tHe deXtRosE, thE pain reliever UG ANG PINAKAGAHI SA TANANG PINAKASAKIT NA ANTI-TETANUS!!!! oUch!!! pLuS ANG PiNAKAHaPdOS NA PANTOLOC NGA GIAGI SA DEXTROSE!!!!! tHeN thEre were tHe dOctOr's oRdeR nOt tO giVe mE a sOLiD fOod fOr oBseRvatiOn puRposEs, the teSt fOr skiN aLLergiEs...aNd thE fiNdiNgS thAt thEre'S a sLight fRactUre On my skuLL! oOopS, bUt iM pRetty mUch okAy! nO fuRtheR damAged hAs bEen fOunD..(waLay bRaiN dAmaGe uy!) iN spitE of aLL thAt paiNS, iM stiLL veRy vEry mUch thAnkfUL.. fOR thE pRayEr, Love aNd sUpPort of aLL thOse peOpLe wHo were thEre (nAv's fAmiLy, my OwN fAmiLy, fRieNds aNd eVeN tHosE wHom i'vE jUst met)...iNdeEd, im thAnkfUL tO GOD! eVerythiNg hapPeNed fOr a reASoN! i stiLL hAve sOmethiNg tO aCcompLish tHat's why He gAve mE aNothEr chAnce tO liVe... whEw whAt a mEmory!!!

after all... it's not really that tragic.. God isn't finished with me yet...

Meet the Composer, the Singer and Museikcaj

SOVEREIGN GOD

I.

Lord, i've been calling you

in the wilderness

Seeking for Your comfort

In midst of tears

My life is of constant struggle

filled with emptiness and trouble

Please hear me my Saviour!

Cho:

Oh God, Our Sovereign God

Your love,

unfailing love

Take me back to Your arms

and Hold me close

Never let me go!

II.

You've been so faithful to me

Yet i neglect You

I'm so carefree...

I thought the world is mine

but it's just a deception on mind

It's You i needed most!

coda:

iT'S You alone

wHo can Love me!

despite the things i've done

You still care for me

It's You alone

whom I should serve

I will love You eternally!!!! :)

(this was my original composition-as to the lyrics)

Music by einuj

Love… at its worst

Getting into a serious relationship is not just a piece of a cake… you need to know where you are going… you need to be aware whom you are dealing with… you need to realize where you are leading…You just need to know everything. We need to take precautionary measures to avoid possible damages in the end.

But these things are much easier said than done. There’s a point in our relationship where we just can’t let go even if we’re hurting. This is the case where what we really feel is more than what we can express. I would say, true love? But the sad thing about it was when we are expecting for the same intensity in return but to our dismay it never happened. All we’ve got are frustrations, false hopes, white lies, a blank stare and a sigh. How pathetic it may sound for somebody begging to be love in return… it’s not suppose to be that way. Love should be a two-way process… well everybody is aware of that basic truth though others choose to ignore. It’s just hard to accept.

But somehow we need to deal with our “too strongly attached” emotion. We need to justify our feeling. We need to stand up and be ready to fight. If it’s not meant to be so let it be! We have to let go! We have to learn to do so. We should be fair with ourselves. After those many chances that were given to them, it has to end! Getting hurt is just a normal thing, time heals. We need not listen to what our heart tells us all the time, let our mind speaks. Again, I may stress that these things are easier said than done. But it is possible! We need to justify ourselves. We are somebody who deserves the best of what we expect to happen. We deserve to be love. If we believe that we have done our best yet remain unnoticed, let go! It’s not our lost. There must be somebody else who needed our love the most so we should not linger to someone who doesn’t even know the essence of relationship, someone who cannot spell out and describe love profoundly. And who knows, the one who needed our love the most is just around the corner waiting to be noticed.

Tip: Find a God-fearing partner and you will really feel blessed... ☺