This is my sister... my bestfriend...

we used to fight about nonsense things just for fun

we used to watch movie together

we used to hang out together

i have my first trip via plane with her

she's the youngest yet she thinks bigger things than I do

She's strict yet so sweet

I miss her so much

I am anticipating for her return next year

I miss my bestfriend, my sis...

Indeed, God is my strength... He calms my heart with His promise of a hopeful future...I have already slowly accept the reality that true love needs a little sacrifice in His name... Yes, my Junie was right when he told me before he left that we need to seek God first... We need to do His will... We need to prioritize God's agenda... and everything, yes literally EVERYTHING will be added unto us... for both of us...

Wow... as I gathered the words to write on this blog, I just can't hold my tears... then i asked myself, why do I cry? I should be happy after all... God has been so faithful with His words, indeed, His plan is to prosper us and NOT to harm us...But why do I felt this kind of emptiness, this kind of feeling that I never felt before...This has something to do with the previous blogs I've wrote... YES, this is the moment of truth... Separation Anxiety, that's it.. i have this anxiety within me now... But I guess this is normal after all... Everybody would feel the same way if given the same situation... Yes, it's not that easy... I should have known this before... I know God will comfort me, as He always does... As of now, I don't have the courage to say that I'm feeling okay because I just can't lie to myself, neither to my heart... This is between me and God... He brought me into this situation for a reason... Everything will work out just perfectly fine... Yes, He is not finished with us yet... This is my waning period, i need to get used to this... but this shall come to pass... Soon, God will reveal His entire plan not only for me but for both of us... I will hold on to God's promises... I can bear all these things through His strength... Yes I Can!

What is Separation anxiety? google tells that Separation anxiety is a developmentally normal characteristic in infants and toddlers younger than 4 years upon separation from their primary attachment figure. Mild distress and clinging behavior are anticipated for short periods of time when young children are separated from their primary caregivers (attachment figures)_{oops...but i'm not a child anymore} then why do i felt this way? hmmm... can somebody give me a warm and comforting hug please......................

Wedding... isn't it every woman's dream? that's what my Ate told me ... She finally took a vow just recently, on the 25th day of April... As I watched her walked down the aisle I can really tell how happy she was... her smile, her eyes... indeed it's a dream come true for her! As for me... God has a plan, not too soon... not too early.. In His time, His perfect time, i'll be declaring my "I DO" to the only man whom God has set for me... :)

As I hurried my way to the office this morning, a wailing ambulance caught my attention... It was so fast that the loud noise of its siren can really hurt one's eardrums... then it reminded me one tragic day of my life...

nOvEmBeR 2, 2005 mOre oR LeSs 10:30 am @ d ImpaSug-Ong Nat'l Hi-Way nEaR atUgAn bRidge.....@#$%^&*<+?>~!!!!

whEw! it'S bEeN more than 3 years yEt eVeRythiNg wAs stiLL fReSh oN my miNd! aS i rEminiSce thAt sCenAriO, it waS rEaLLy vEry sCary! i CaN stiLL rEmembEr thE bLoOd oN my eYeliD rUnNing thRoUgh my fAce dOwn tO my shiRt... tHe pAiN oN my sHoULdEr, on my forehead.. my broken nose.. the bruises on the coRneR of my lips and on my neck! i cAn stiLL reMember hOw my mOthEr reActEd whEn shE sAw mE...t'Was a piCtuRe of aNgeR aNd pity, gOod thiNg my bRothER cAme tO cALm hEr..tHeN tHerE waS thAt x-Ray, thE ct-sCaN thAt i've gOne tHroUgh.. tHe paiNfUL iNjEctiOn fOr tHe deXtRosE, thE pain reliever UG ANG PINAKAGAHI SA TANANG PINAKASAKIT NA ANTI-TETANUS!!!! oUch!!! pLuS ANG PiNAKAHaPdOS NA PANTOLOC NGA GIAGI SA DEXTROSE!!!!! tHeN thEre were tHe dOctOr's oRdeR nOt tO giVe mE a sOLiD fOod fOr oBseRvatiOn puRposEs, the teSt fOr skiN aLLergiEs...aNd thE fiNdiNgS thAt thEre'S a sLight fRactUre On my skuLL! oOopS, bUt iM pRetty mUch okAy! nO fuRtheR damAged hAs bEen fOunD..(waLay bRaiN dAmaGe uy!) iN spitE of aLL thAt paiNS, iM stiLL veRy vEry mUch thAnkfUL.. fOR thE pRayEr, Love aNd sUpPort of aLL thOse peOpLe wHo were thEre (nAv's fAmiLy, my OwN fAmiLy, fRieNds aNd eVeN tHosE wHom i'vE jUst met)...iNdeEd, im thAnkfUL tO GOD! eVerythiNg hapPeNed fOr a reASoN! i stiLL hAve sOmethiNg tO aCcompLish tHat's why He gAve mE aNothEr chAnce tO liVe... whEw whAt a mEmory!!!

after all... it's not really that tragic.. God isn't finished with me yet...