When I was still single, I was somewhat carefree type of person... I do believe in "Come what may...".  No definite future plans at all. I've been working for almost a decade now (since my first real job) and yet I used to get contented with my job and my arbitrary condition as part time teacher. My Mom used to tell me to have myself get rank from government schools. Actually I heed her advise but didn't make it all the way. However, things changed when I got married and become a Mom. Priorities change, as well as my plans. All I wanted now is to have a permanent position in the government institution. I want security not only for me but for my family. I am hoping against hope (with prayers of course!) that God would eventually go with my plans and let things happen in accordance to His will.

Someday, I can make it... someday, I will see myself being secured, not worrying anymore about my baby's future... Well, in God's perfect timing, He will make all things beautiful.

Care to pray for me as well?

 

I admit, I am not as faithful as one should ought to be in the area of tithing. I have a lot of reasons to give to God why I wasn't able to do what I ought to do, but the bottom line is still the same:  

I ROBBED GOD WITH WHAT IS DUE TO HIM.

One obvious reason why I cannot give is that I am running short of money (as always) I do not know why even if how big is the amount that I will receive, still it is not good enough and I wonder why. Then I remember what our Pastor often told us that we should be faithful in the area of giving. I wonder how big it seems the 10% was when it is for God and so little when we are hoping for a salary augmentation. One particular verse in the Bible that I used to make as my alibi when it comes to giving is the verse in 2 Corinthians 9:7 which says that "Each man should give what he has decided to give, NOT RELUCTANTLY or UNDER COMPULSION for God loves a cheerful giver". But I realized that such verse was meant to explain what our attitude should be in the area of giving and TITHING is another thing. It is an obligation. Those times that I missed tithing we experienced a couple of financial crises and I even reach to a point that I blamed God for all those circumstances. It was a slap to my face when I realized that all those misfortune I've encountered were the result of my unfaithfulness. I robbed a small amount to God in exchange of vast financial constraint.

So now, I made it to a point not to commit the same mistake again. I cannot bear anymore the consequences. I should not let anxiety overwhelms me. I have lots of apprehensions but I should not allow all those things to stop me in giving to God what is due to Him. I should allow Him to have the total control of my life, specifically in all my finances. :)

Linking my way to Word-Filled Wednesday!