Responsibilities according to the
Word Web is defined as
"The social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force"... ouch! while searching for its definition, I can feel the burden. I am not saying that I am against with that word. It just so happen that when I was challenged with my responsibilities, I felt helpless. Why? because I do not have the means to carry that responsibilities. And what exactly I mean when I say "means"? Well. I don't feel like elaborating it here. I just want to express my feeling right now in a subtle way. Again and again, it made my day awful by just merely thinking about it.
Well, I know for a fact that I am not the only one who went through his kind of dilemma... but hey, it's quite too heavy for me to bear... And the sad fact was that, the people whom you have expected to , shall I say, be with you in this kind of ordeal, they are equally helpless to help you. They do not have the "means" as well.
Buh! where is my God? maybe He could help... not unless, He deliberately allow me to feel this way... therefore, He just let me have this feeling until I totally gave up everything and surrender it back to Him... (Easier said than done) We already have that intimate conversation the other night, I slept at 2am. I talked to Him, however, I wasn't able get the chance of listening to His responses... my hands is so full... my mind is so preoccupied and my heart is restless. And now, alone and so lonely... I can hear the rain drops... and I can feel the warmth of my tear drops.
Lord, make me whole...
Two years after the events in The Bourne Identity, Bourne and his girlfriend, Marie Kreutz, are living in Goa, India. Bourne is beginning to recover some of his memories, and he is troubled by disjointed flashbacks of an assassination he carried out in a Berlin hotel. Meanwhile, in Berlin, a CIA officer under Deputy Director Pamela Landy is trading $3 million for the "Neski Files", documents about the theft of $20 million from the CIA seven years earlier. During the exchange, a Russian assassin named Kirill arrives to intercept the selling. He plants two bombs in the basement electrical circuit: one on the main and the other on a subline with Jason Bourne's fingerprint. The bomb on the main line kills the power while Kirill kills the agent and the source, and steals the files and money, which he gives to Russian oil magnate Yuri Gretkov. Kirill then travels to Goa to kill Bourne, but Bourne flees with Marie. As Bourne and Marie are driving away, Kirill fires a sniper rifle at the car that kills Marie, and the car veers off the bridge they are on into a river. Kirill leaves, believing that he killed Bourne. Bourne manages to swim away undetected, leaving Marie dead in the river (after unsuccessful mouth-to-mouth resuscitation). He then burns all of Marie's passports and pictures except for one picture showing both of them in an embrace. He also clears the house they lived in, taking all of the notes that Bourne used to dictate his dreams. Bourne travels to Italy to learn why he is again being targeted... click here for more
